" do your boobs hang low....?"

You know the song.....
The answer:
yes
yes
I haven't tried but sure I can after my fourth.
yes
yes

Warning...this post may be uncomfortable for some readers....I am pretending I am in my safe place of close friends, ignoring the possibility of other lurpy readers. Sorry if I offend.


Saggy Boobs
Q. What did one saggy boob say to the other saggy boob?

A. We better get some support before people start thinking we're nuts!


One of the draw backs of losing weight is my chest is the first to lose weight and last to gain. Although smaller boobs makes for better running. I will take it. They are pretty pitiful for being in my "prime"

i have struggled the past week. Our Biggest loser competition in my family ends July 1st and I feel like I won't lose any more. Plus my scale is playing tricks on me magically spitting out false numbers despite my mental vibes telling it to play nice these last 2 weeks. Perhaps my body gearing up in ovulation incubation is playing a part in water weight and it is not actual fat poundage.

Another issue I am facing is my children being home from school.
In theory I should love my children and relish their childhood and being home all day to spend all my mental and physically energies on rearing them right.

However, I might be heading down a slippery slope to insanity.

TRUE CONFESSIONS:

They are driving me crazy, and when I feel crazy I eat to make me feel better.
That in turn makes me feel guilty and then I'm even more ticked afterward, so it does the opposite effect.

I have kept on top of my working out but have slacked on the eating somewhat.
I had a Krispy Kreme donut today....I know, eat a apple instead right??? Totally not worth it!
It is still a mental game for me.
I am learning to gage my stress level and not self-medicate through food.

FINAL ANALYSIS:
I am making a U-Turn and repenting and continue to make better choices.

I have gotten sick of writing my food log, but I know it helps.

Any trip snack ideas in order to not eat Red Vines and Twix???

ATTN: LURKERS
COMMENT!!!

Hello

Mandi, Camille told me you are at a happy weight. Wow, I will probably never see my high school weight 105. Congratulations ! I am still shooting for 120, 7 more pounds to go.

Camille keep it up you are doing great and remember to be good on your trip.

I am trying to keep busy so I don't eat as much, still love food, still a struggle.
Keep in touch, Chantelle

magic numbers

I feel I am writing to myself. Thats cool, I'll write as if there are invisible blogger friends reading this. (I am such a loner!)I feel I have not accomplished the mission and will continue plugging away for lofty goals.


As I was talking to one of my favorite people today....Ms. Ash.
Conversations always too short.

We were discussing when enough is enough for our weightloss.
When we reach our magic number is it enough? Or do we keep wanting more?
I have reached a goal of a "number" I have not been at post-children. Yet, do I pat myself and feel proud?........NO! I want to go further and hit my fire-extinguisher goal.( Where Mandi has now gotten to!)

I feel along the way down the scale each minor accomplishment should be enjoyed. If not we will feel guilty and unsatisfied till we're 50. Not me people, I want to feel healthy and happy for the rest of my life, finding balance always. I am guilty of wanting more. Tonight I will realize and relish my accomplishments, if only for a mere 15 min.

I am running 30+ miles a week @ a realtively decent pace for me.
I can still bust out the butterfly stroke at swimming and kick butt.
I can swim 80+ laps in 45 min. And go for a 1hr long bike ride after.
I can beat my husband running on a monster hill during interval training.
I can do a pretty decent yoga session with good form.
I have woken up @ 5:00 or 5:30 for the past 3 months 4-6 days a week.
I occasionaly have glances at the gym my way. (Occasionaly)Feels good sadly.
I have calf muscles. (Swimmers don't have calves, I now have a budding muscle)
My legs are toner, especially a previous problem spot above my knees.
I do not have cankles, I may have thick thighs but my ankles are great.(Thanks Mama Rebecca)
I am starting to get my waist back.
I have pretty cut arms right now.
I have a fierce plank.
I will run a marathon and a sprint triathlon in 2008.
I love, the workout burn and excercising till I feel like barfing.
True confessions, I really do.... the harder the better. Feel like a heart attack......even better!

If I had this drive and competetive spirit in my youth I could have been a great athlete.( I lulled off in swimming when I discovered boys...big mistake)

Whew...that felt good.
I'll go back to feeling inadequete now.

Peace out ghosts,
Camille

grounded

I have been grounded from the computer, I almost lost my husband's application for a job and it was 35 pages long.--So good to hear that you two girls are doing well.--I on the other hand need to get back in the zone. I am eating too much. I bought a big bag of almonds at Costco and I have been snacking on them a little to much. I have just been hungry all this week and weak as in willpower. Still 128 not bad not good. So I promise I am going to start blogging my food log and I still need to weigh myself everyday I think it helps me stay in the zone. --Stay strong this weekend.

Hi.

Okay, my eyes are about to fall out of my head as I am writing this. I am so tired. But, here I am trying to return. I think I'm slacking because I feel like someone else took the wheel for a while and I need a break. It feels good... but I know I need to keep my food log so shame on me! Camille... can you be more specific about the dip? Just call and tell me... really exciting! I got you a present in Spokane and i can't wait to send it to you. send me your address especially now that I'm not even going to see you this summer... jerk. Anyway, I had 3 bowls of raisin bran today. At three different times... is that weird? I was so busy i didn't have time for anything else. So here is my meals for today...

Breakfast-
1 bowl raisin bran

cleaned my house all morning for my dad to come...

Went swimming with kids then rushed home to sell headbands to Maressa (Ashley came too)

L-
String cheese, coke zero

Snack-
Bowl of raisin bran

worked out at 4:30 pm then went to run errands while Ben went to a Yankees game with my dad.

Dinner-
bowl of raisin bran... I'm not kidding!

put both kids down and just now sitting down for the first time all day! ( it's 8:30 pm)

I did workout at 4:30 cardio cut and got my hamstrings kicked!
Also, I played basketball for 2 hours last night and although I only scored 4 points, I ran harder than any one person should without throwing up...crazy!

"bend me....shape me...."

Anyway you want to! Finally today I jumped on the scale scared to see the number, and to my suprise I dip I had not expected! I was stoked! I had to take a double-take at the scale and ask my husband to weigh himself to make sure it was not a fluke! ( I am still scared it is) I WILL TAKE IT! I am going to keep doing exactly the same thing...... scared to change a thing! Today I got my shrinking butt (thankfully) out of bed and went swimming at an outdoor pool @5:30 a.m .........brutal to get up but well worth the torture of a buzzing alarm clock waking a peaceful slumber. It was already 75 degrees and the pool felt perfect. I had a yoganess moment watching the sunrise while swimming. I read a quote by a doctor saying that getting some form of exercise at dawn is as powerful as an anti-depressant. I think there is some truth to that. Having a quiet moment while making your body work, accomplishing your workout before the chaos of your day starts is awesome. Not possible for everyone but great if it is....... There is my plug for early morning workouts. I also went on a short run @ 9:00a.m with my sis-n-law Jenn, which turned in to a walk because we got lost. This was not so fun as the sun already at that time is gearing up to blaze.

tuesday:

B- protein shake
S- nuts
L- vegetables and steak
S-3 handfuls popcorn
D- meatballs

Wed thus far

B- protein shake
S- nuts
L-meatballs
D- projected dinner chicken and veggies

MANDI- DO NOT LEAVE US EVEN THOUGH YOU ARE A ROCK STAR!

DON"T QUIT SASH RIDE IT TILL THE END!

new week 3 more to go

Someday Camille will be writing for a health magazine or short stories, very entertaining post.
--On Saturday I went to Chile's and returned to my old eating habits. I couldn't resist the chips and salsa, but I did order the lettuce wraps and I ate at 8 o'clock at night. --
--GOALS this week:
15 miles jog throughout the week
2 spin classes
2 workouts in pool
2 weight sessions
2 ab workouts

no sugar no bread, eating before 6 p.m.
I am going to weigh in on Saturday--hopefully 126--I haven't dared weigh myself after Saturday night. --3 weeks till conest is over!

Cheater,Cheater.....cookie eater

I am a cheater and trying to defy all odds stacked against me to have it stamped on my forehead as a diet cheater. As of right now I have not physicaly cheated since my last re-do, however I have taken a big whif of some potent, delectable food and feel I have inhaled calories and therefore feel guilty at the thought of cheating. So, let me simplify....I either feel guilty for cheating or feel guilty for thinking about cheating! I would make the worst guy ever! This diet is doing loopy things to my brain. I have figured out it's quite simple:

WE WANT WHAT WE CAN'T HAVE......AND WHEN WE HAVE IT, IT LOSES IT'S APPEAL!! RIGHT??

Suddenly a bowl of cereal is a seductress. No people! Not normal!

Food is food we eat to live not live to eat.

I am going to work on concentrating on how I feel rather than what I cannot eat. Try to remove the guilt factor. If we didn't make it to the gym.....ok.... make it tommorow. If we look phenomenal and decided to splurge and eat a cookie.....go right ahead you deserve it! If we cheat and need to make a U-turn a thousand times to get back on the freeway....eventually we will learn. Positive thoughts lead to accomplished actions. I want to accomplish the impossible. Or at least give it a hearty effort.
Live guilt- free people!

Peace out friends,
Camille



P.S this all could be PMS talking.

Food log: Friday
spin bike for 45 min and weights for 30
B-
a peice of quiche left over from sister's baby shower
S- nuts
L- subway whole wheat turkey kids mini sub
D- 3 bean soup
Dessert - Ricotta creme

Sat-body pump class
B-ricotta creme
S pistachios
L- 2 slices of turkey and 3 slices cheese
S-picstachios sugar free candy
D- fajita salad
Dessert ricotta creme and 2 handfuls popcorn (obsessing over)

Testing

IT has been raining for two days now, I am dying to go on walk outside it is to wet and muddy.

The stomach flu diet...

Oh yes, I have been to hell and back! Woke up Tues morning with the fresh feeling of puke in my lungs! Seriously, having the stomach flu is so overrated... or is it underrated? Anyway, I'm finally feeling a little better and I'm pretty sure I lost at least 1 lb so I'm trying to capitalize off that! You guys are keeping it up! Did the Google invites not work? you should be able to post now... but let me know!

Tues-
2 pieces sour dough toast (actually has a low glycemic index because of the acid)

Wed-
1 bowl bran flakes
5 triscuits
1 turkey burger Pattie with cheese, lettuce, tomato

milk

also, i worked out on Monday, 1 hr weights... so sore!! Remember Camille BIG MEALS WITH LOTS OF VEGGIES AND MEAT!!!! KEEP THE MACHINE RUNNING!

ps Ben just put in the movie "The Painted Veil" Have you seen it? Oh, I'm so obsessed... seriously such a good movie! Haunting!

A little bit of this and that...

This little girl was at the park on Sat and her afro puffs with her cherry dress was so cute to me! Made me feel like summer has finally come! Time to eat some cherries!

Okay, so I'm definitely feeling good lately now that my cold from h-e-l-l is over (that was me spelling hell by the way...kinda defeats the purpose when you are reading it!) Anyway, I'm back and ready to work-out tomorrow! Can't wait to get back to the gym. I'm going to step up the exercise this week because I'm going home this weekend and remember how my anorexic sisters think I'm chubby. As they call it... "big boned!" I'm the amazon woman in the family. That's fine. I like my badunk. So this weekend has been really mellow. The weather is finally picking up and today could not have been more perfect. How's Texas ladies? Chantelle, you are dropping lbs like a mad lady! You are doing something right that's for sure. I added Chantelle as an author so you can now make posts. Camille, I need your email but don't write it here just call me and tell me. Here is my weekend list of food-

Friday-

b-2 eggs

1 piece of toast

l-

1/2 of William's left over cheese quasadilla on whole wheat tortilla

avocado,salsa

cherries (ummm... so good right now!)

D-Huge salad with Gorgonzola, bacon, almonds, oil and vinegar and fresh pepper (tomatoes too!)

s-

warm milk

Saturday-

b-

2 pieces toast

l-

in and out protein style, grilled onions, diet coke! so good.

dinner-

Turkey sandwich, laughing cow low fat cheese, tomatoes, lettuce

3 potato chips (tom's salt and vine agar... so good I had to taste!)

snack-

pudding snack with light whip cream

Sunday-

Breakfast-

2 pieces of toast

lunch-

turkey/cheese/asparagus pepper avocado salad

s-

1 piece dark choc with natural peanut butter

diet coke

... keep it up girls and start posting like crazy!

PS saw this bikini on urban outfitters and I'm so tempted to buy it. i think it might be the only 2 piece i could pull off without making people run away in fear...